As I write this Tim is flying over the ocean on his way to pick up Sensi. The girls and I are home waiting. I’ve been feeling some anxiety off and on today and find myself wishing for distraction, but no matter what task or hobby I put myself to, my thoughts continually turn inward where I am acutely aware of my shaky instability.
I miss my husband.
I can’t even focus on writing so perhaps today is a good day to post something written by someone else. Following is a copy of the first description we received of Sensi when a friend (Thank you, Tonya Wike) sent us his profile about a year and a half ago. This description is written by a young woman who interned at Sensi’s orphan care center. If we had received only facts and medical records about Sensi I can’t say for sure that Tim would be flying right now. But thanks to this young woman and the time she took to advocate for Sensi, we are about to welcome home our son.
Always remember that words have power. Words change lives.
I have copied and pasted exactly what we received so Sensi’s name appears as “Samuel” which is how we first knew him. Also the name of his orphanage is omitted.
Written by an intern at Samuel’s orphanage:
I met Samuel on the second day that I volunteered at ********. He was sitting alone in the staircase of the main building after wandering away from a few of the other kids who were playing outside. He looked at me and I asked his name and he didn’t respond. Later on it was explained to me that he “won’t talk”.
Samuel takes a while to warm up, he is guarded but once he decides you are safe- you are in. The icebreaker was taking funny pictures on my phone, instant hit. He tagged along the rest of the time I was there. I was told that they did not know why he didn’t talk he just didn’t want to. He is a smart boy, he communicates his wants and needs through pointing, gesturing, and in that way is easy to understand. When I asked “Where is green?” he pointed at a tree. I wish I had spent more time with him as he started to come more and more out of his shell. I had heard that lately he had been trying to talk- saying/whispering wuha (Amharic for water) to another volunteer a few weeks prior so one of the days when he was supposed to be napping I was able to take him from his crib- we played and he repeated sounds “ssss” “ttt” “uhh” and then when I said wuha he repeated it in a low breathy voice.
He is very laid back and very well behaved. He is in “preschool” at ****- which is 6 or so other kids who are too young for KG or haven’t tested in yet and an older boy with handicaps, taught by whatever volunteers are there.
Samuel came into **** within six months of me being there from Gambella- Some of the volunteers who I stayed with were there when he came. I got to hear more about his story- for the first few weeks of being at ***** Samuel sat in a corner. He didn’t talk, didn’t cry, didn’t play, didn’t want to eat, and never smiled. Slowly he came a bit out of his shell. When I was there in March of 2014, he would play, and smile, eat every bit of his food, and would cry when mistreated or misunderstood.
He, along with most of the other kids his age, would periodically have accidents and wet themselves. Samuel is very scared of getting in trouble and would freeze when the nuns would come.
Samuel has one of the best smiles. His smile takes over his whole face. His teeth are almost all decayed though. It makes eating certain things hard and the nannies would sometimes make him special food and feed him.
Physically- Samuel seemed about average with the other four and five year olds. He did have a raspy cough when we were there.
He likes to look at book after book, and especially liked looking at a book with different textures to feel. He also seemed to love to color. As far as I know, he does not know how to write yet.
Samuel does not get much attention at ***** to have the chance to learn new things. He is low maintenance and therefore forgotten about and pushed aside.
Samuel likes to help and would get or bring back anything I needed or things that the other kids took from me. He is sweet and lovable and it took all of a day to win me over completely.
Samuel likes being held and one on one attention-although he doesn’t force it. He was content sitting on my lap, stroking my face, pointing out freckles, and playing with my necklace. He would follow me and gently hold my hand and not just be jumping on me like the other kids. From what I saw he is very obedient and respectful.
He is easily overpowered by the other, louder, kids in the group. He doesn’t demand attention and is content to just be sitting beside you.
Samuel does show fear often; he gets scared easily and I think if he felt safe you would get to see even more of his personality.
I love this little boy so much and have been praying that he finds the right family every day. He is an amazing little boy.
Samuel is very sweet and I believe he would thrive in a family environment, where he can feel safe and get the care and attention he wants and needs. He needs someone to believe in him, to teach him. He needs a mommy and daddy.
I am so thankful that God answered this intern’s prayers and chose us to be Sensi’s mommy and daddy. Reading this in the waiting reminds me of how sure we are that God put us together, and He will continue His work of uniting us when Sensi finally comes home. (One Week!!!)